Cheers friends
P.S. I'm not depressed, that post is just a little bit on the sad side :)
I was struck with a terrifying realization today sometime between my midmorning nap and my second midmorning nap; all my dreams have died. There was a time in my life where I was an 8 year old boy who could do anything; a boy with no reservations or doubts and who possessed a staggering, undying hope. Well it turns out that that hope is mortal after all. Have I become more realistic or just less ambitious? For some reason I find the thought of a pile of discarded dreams more depressing than anything within recent memory, and now, I find myself in the process of effectively silencing those dreams forever. That process wears the guise of Linfield College. By enrolling in a four year university, I've set a course for myself that's going to decide my life for the next decade and beyond. This is it for me, no more playing for the Blazers on there championship run, no more walking on to play DI football for the Ducks, no more playing for 20,000 screaming fans as Weezer's lead guitarist next to Rivers, now it's just burring myself in books and focusing on one thing; medical school. Then, some 8 years down the road, I'll hopefully have a real job; I'll be a doctor. While this is a dream in it's own right, I feel like it's a dream that was inspired (or instilled rather) by the rational sensibility of society and not the, admittedly so, less rational, less sensible, but much more fantastic imagination of a little boy that I used to be. I guess what left me today was the idea that anything is possible. The feeling that I've always had that I can do anything. Instead, I've realized that I am not invincible, I'm not unfailing, I do have both reservations and doubts, and I do have limitations, and many at that. I wish I didn't have to grow up.
wow thats deep man, but i completly agree with you, what happen to the days where we thought that people flying was possible or when we thought we could save the world. ive come to this realization also M. carp, but cheers to new dreams